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Name: Steven
Location: California, United States
Birthday: 7/6/1984
Interests: Seeking the ultimate Kyushu Ramen.
Expertise: Excessive idealizations.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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AIM:  CrustySandalman
Member Since:
4/23/2004
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| I've been having a bad case of insomnia these days. I've been
trying to figure out why I've been going to sleep at 4am each day, and
it's definitely not because I am too busy (I just have two finals this
week, for gosh sakes).
I wonder if it could be simply a feeling of restlessness, that I'm not
looking forward to the huge path that lies ahead of me. It's such
a grueling task the way I see it, and the path to becoming a doctor
seems so monstrous to me, that I think I'm overwhelming myself by
blowing the obstacles out of proportion.
I think I've gotten weaker in the sense that I give up too easily and
get tempted to switch back to pharmacy when I think of what lies
ahead. Kendo reflects this side of me because I take too long of
a break each time I practice uchikomi. I need to learn how to
sustain my kiai without breaking my concentration. This may
contradict what I've said in the past about my time with Kendo--but the
harder things become, the more important Kendo becomes. I can't
make practice as much as I want in the days ahead, but I'll have to
make what I'll lack in quanitity with quality.
"The grass is always greener on the other side," my Dad says to
me. That's just his way of telling me to not give up.
Or maybe he's just hinting that grass in Mexico is better to smoke than
here. Uh...probably not. 
Day by day! Fight!
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| Minna--otsukaresama-deshita...
After six months of practice, hope, and frustration--Team UCLA took the 10th Shoryuhai Kendo Championship title!!
I miss the fun already
I won't forget how we went together
The times when we shared laughs, tears, and
those moments of beautiful intensity.
Everyone...thank you. I'm glad I got to spend my last quarter in
college with all you, because you're all that I have. I'm going
to take the lessons that I learned and use it to help me live a better
life. Let's keep practicing and trying our best to improve!
Ikkuzou..OH!
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| Howdy everyone...wishing ya'll a happy new year--let's try hard and make 2006 great, yea?
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| Super negative feeling right now...
This feeling doesn't happen too often but,
Doing an animal behavioral proposal on the Golden Silk Spiders at 1:30am in the freakin morning...is so FUCKING annoying.
Gad...just gotta get through with this shit....
I am really burned out these days...I just want to go home...
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| UCLA Kendo Club started again...I really wanted go support everyone by
coming to practice and trying my best. I'm really glad there was
a good turnout...I even got to meet some new kenshi who have practiced
in the past.
I realized that deep inside, I'm still a really shy individual who
still doesn't know how to interact with new people. I think i'm a
rather friendly guy, but in many cases, I don't really know what to
talk about and end up not saying anything too interesting. Still, it
makes me really happy to see everyone again, and so eager to
practice.
School and other activities will be busy this quarter, but I can't
forget about the club that me and Nathan started up 4 years ago.
I can't believe it's been that long.
I'll do my best to support. Thanks for everyone's understanding.
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